nearly crashed today. had i waited another 3 seconds, who knows what would have happened?

to all those who complain that i earn 3.5k a month at this age:

i wake up at 630am, start work at 7, end work at 11pm, only stopping for toilet breaks and 20 mins lunch break, only had dinner at 1020pm and it was half-soaked instant noodles.

so, please. stop complaining.

sometimes in life, we give up too easily. flew with dopey today and he reminded me of a valuable lesson that i have somehow forgotten. sometimes i just try too hard to be perfect, and when things dont turn out the way i expect it to be, i feel lost. it's been like this all my life.

he said during the debrief: "something has happened, so what? let it go. the fight is in front of u. if u're going for a target and ur wingman got shot down along the way, do u stop? no. u see, the aerobatic team continues to fly even though 1 of their members crashed. that's life."

kinda meaningful i feel.

haha i've just got news that commander won't be coming due to the volcanic ash cloud over europe and commercial flights are cancelled. PERMISSION TO MESS UP THE ROOM, SIR!

"CARRY ON."

haha i've just got news that commander won't be coming due to the volcanic ash cloud over europe and commercial flights are cancelled. PERMISSION TO MESS UP THE ROOM, SIR!

"CARRY ON."

i was just wondering, how many of us are suffering from low self esteem?

sometimes i do, a little bit. haha. it's time to take control.

god dammit, the colonel's visit is stressing me out haha, i even dreamt of it last night/or this morning, i cant really remember..

it's difficult, now that vincent's here, i drink with him every weekend, like 3 bottles of beers each friday and saturday. gonna see that belly soon. sigh.

sigh, man down. gabi failed his test last week, and he failed his re-test again today. suspension board awaits. i dont think it'll be a big problem though, given his results in the past..

bobo was not that lucky. he didn't make it through the board, and it's been confirmed today that it's over for him. sigh. that really sucks, he's a nice guy, a good friend, hardworking guy. due to some reasons i can't disclose online.. i almost cried when i saw him so broken.

it sets me thinking, if i feel so sad when my friends have to leave this place because they didn't succeed, but they're still safe and sound, how will i feel if i lose my friends in combat/advanced training?

once again, laggy internet, 1, yw, 0.

this thing sucks. on an average, i skype with my family 2-3 hours in 1 month. and because of the new guys and paris trip, we haven't talked for some time. yesterday and today we tried but the internet sucked and i could really feel my blood pressure increasing. lol. fucked up sia.

suddenly i miss those days.

so, go kart, laser quest tonight. life's good isn't it?

damn. i can't wait.

i've always been thankful to god, for he has given me really awesome friends.

friends who take care of me when i'm stupid, friends who show "tough love" to me when i'm being stupid. nice.

i'm seldom so illogical, and seldom THAT drunk.

haha, paris was awesome this time round.